A year that shouldn't have been

2011 was an year of dichotomy of emotions for me. An year that brought me together with my 91' Royal enfield and fiat Palio-my first car, A promotion at work. Unfortunately had the latter 2 come any earlier, it would've had a totally different significance.

Be that as it may, 2011 is an year that has basically been before June22nd-July 7th. World was still a beautiful rosy place with everything to look upto, when June 22nd brought a turmoil in the form of an accident that snatched away a pillar of my strength, my dad! 16 days of my life was spent sheer helplessness against HIS will. All I could do then was to pray, pray and finally ask GOD to have mercy on dad. Looks like God sought the easier way to do so and took him away. 6 months hence, I understand what it means to go into an absolute mute mode. A shell I'm now trying to break away from. 

Will I, won't I ? 

Honestly, I don't know and don't bother any longer. All I want to do now is to be the best son to my mom and a responsible brother to my sister. 

It's not about me anymore. Is it?

ಹೃದಯ ರಾಗ

ನೂರಾರು ಮುಖಗಳಲಿ ಒಂದು ಮುಖವ ಹುಡುಕಿದೆ
ಕಾಣದೆಯೇ ಕಾಡಿಹುದು ನಿನ್ನ ಈ ಮಾಯಾಛಾಯೆ.
ಬೆರಗಾದೆ ನಾ, ನಿನ್ನ ಮುಗುಳ್ನಗೆಯ ಊಹೆಯಲಿ,
ಹೋಗಲಾರೆ ಎಲ್ಲೂ ನೀ, ಬರದೇ ಎನ್ನ ಜೀವನದಿ,
ಸಾಗದೆ ನಿಂತಿಹುದು ಜೀವನದ ಈ ಕಾದಂಬರಿ.

ಮಸಣ ಯಾತನೆ ಬಂದಿದೆ

ಮಾಸದೊಂದು ನೆನಪನೀಡಿ, ಕೈಯ ತೊರೆದು ಹೋದೆನಿ,
ಏಕೆ ಹೇಗೆ ಎಂತು ಕೇಳಲಾಗದೆ ಬೀಳ್ಕೊಟ್ಟೆವು.
ಕಣ್ಣಮುಂದೆ ಕಾಣೆಯಾಗಿ, ಕನಸುಗಳಲಿ ಬಂದಿಹೆ,
ಕಣ್ಣ ಹನಿಗಳಿಂದು ಸುರಿಸಲಾಗದೆ ಬತ್ತಿದೆ, 
ಕನಸುಗಳಿದ್ದ ಕಣ್ಣುಗಳಲಿ ಮಸಣ ಯಾತನೆ ಬಂದಿದೆ, ಮಸಣ ಯಾತನೆ ಬಂದಿದೆ!!!

That was so little time...

Just less than a year since you retired from an organization that you served for 40 years, and HE thought you were all done. With those wheels to take you around, You hardly took a break, you had hardly retired.

The only question I have and will continue to have despite any number of answers...

WHY?